Just want to write in English so nobody who tries to sneak out behind me understands anything...
Sorry for the grammar mistakes ><"
Just I felt like I should write something here again...One time for so long,and the reason of course isn't cuz I'm really happy,children laugh round me or I'm in love...
I understood what a sad person I am today.My mom keeps telling me I should find a way to get out of those depressions and find something that really makes me happy...And when I finally find something that makes me happy...SOmething out there,somehow makes me feel down again...
I'm just fed up of that stuff,I try not to care and I can'...I try to leave people live their own life in their own way and just it doesn't work...Like they keep trying to make me down,to ruin my life,like I'm some person that just deserves to be punished because he's made the mistake to be born.
You know how people say that kids need a place where they feel comfortable and in save...And thats their home? And like in last three months,everytime I come back home I feel like I have never been here...Like I enter some completely different place,with people that hates me more and more with every single day,and with changes that I have never wanted or could say that I don't.
And I feel like people don't deserve my bad moods,and get bored when I have em like every two days...
I'm sorry for being such an emo sometimes :(...
Just I really hate this place now,hate everything about it,every single place...And if my brother wasn't in that so hated place I would just freak out...I just want everything to be back like before...I hate everything about this flat,about this place...
I JUST WANT TO LEAVE THIS PLACE...!!!! THAT'S ALL I WANT...